Ruminating.

[foxmonkey]

I write shmoop, apparently.

I'm not sure I'm comfortable with this. I mean, I am until it's mentioned, and then I get all weird about it again. Because it's not taken seriously, is it? Shmoop, I mean.

Fanfic taken seriously...ha! Yeah, but you know what I mean. Not really respected, is it?

Oy, again with the head hurting.

Comments

[rhyssj.livejournal.com]

hey, dude. I'm pretty sure I'm a shmoopy writer, too. so take from that what you will. we can not take it seriously together or something.

and dude. the icon. hello, I need therapy. fricking Jacob and his fricking monkey!

[foxmonkey.livejournal.com]

Then I'm in excellent company, baby. :-)

Is that monkey pic a scream, or what? I've got about five Jacob/monkey icon ideas in my head that I might whip up this weekend during writing breaks. I showed that picture to an O-Town lovin' friend, and I may have teased her mercilessly about her boyband boy gettin' hot and heavy with a simian. She pretended to be amused. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

Jacob and his monkey love, oh my god. Truth is stranger than fiction, but then, so is O-Town. BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

[foxmonkey.livejournal.com]

Yes, replying again because I'm channeling JC tonight.

I don't think of you as a shmoopy writer, though. I think my stuff's more romantic than it is anything else, and that's the difference. Your fic is sweet, funny, hot, and makes you think. You take your readers places, and I'm not sure that I do that.

My fic's like a snack, or something, yours is a meal. *That's* the difference, yes.

[batgrrl1975.livejournal.com]

dude, your fic kicks ass! and there's nothing wrong with schmoopy-type stuff. that's the stuff that i go back to and read again and again. you know? and i guess my definition of schmoop would be romantic. like, some authors are so concerned with being gritty that their fic is re-readable. you know what i mean? but like, you capture these sweet moments between people. that's what i consider good stuff, man.

[foxmonkey.livejournal.com]

Well, thankee. :-)

I just get in these moods sometimes where it seems that everyone is writing fabulous, fandom-shaking stuff but me. Know what I mean? That what I write is just kind of there, because it doesn't do or mean anything. And I suspect that I'm not making much sense trying to explain this.

I guess I just want my characters to be happy. Even when bad stuff is happening, good stuff will happen at the end. I think I've written one bittersweet ending [Yella], and I have a sadder one planned for another story that's in the works, but usually, I can't stand it when people are unhappy. I want everyone to have a happy ending, even if it's not realistic. I mean, I've had enough balls of shit dropped on my own head in the last year, especially, that I don't necessarily want to visit them upon my favorite singing group, even in fic. And that's probably why my stories are happy and sweet; if I can control the crap that's raining down upon their heads, it's probably gonna be minimal. :-)

So, while I love reading realistic stuff that's not necessarily happy, even gritty stuff if it fits my perception of the Syncers' public personas and what I believe to be their private ones, I just can't seem to break past whatever is keeping me from achieving the same in my own writing.

Did Barbara Cartland secretly want to be Shirley Jackson?

Aiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii, I am on crack and must be ignored.

[silviakundera.livejournal.com]

I think that shmoop can get a lot of respect, as long as it's written well. Schulyer pretty much only writes schoomp and at times Rhys dips into it... and Jae.. and Syntronick. Etc, etc.

Any and all lack of respect that I recieve probably has nothing to do with my occasional schoomp, and also nothing to do with that fact that I do rarely write it. Just work on doing what you do. If you write it, and write it carefully, they will come. *g*

[foxmonkey.livejournal.com]

If you write it, and write it carefully, they will come. *g*

One can only hope. ::g:: Thanks for replying, by the way!

A couple of days have passed, and I realize now that a small percentage of my little pity party was hormone-based. I definitely go through cycles with my writing, though. Think it's not too bad one day, then wonder what the hell I'm doing for a few weeks. Aiiii! I truly hate when that happens, because it tends to slow me down.

Hmmm, I'm wondering now if this is what happens when I'm blocked? I never considered the cycles before, not thinking one had anything to do with the other. I considered being blocked as one thing separate from my less-than-worthy feelings, but now see that they're probably part of one cycle, as I'm currently blocked.

Jeebus, it's 12:05am so if I'm not making sense, forgive me. I shall now tuck my brain away until it's running more smoothly. Preferably sometime after dawn. :-)