Think it's because we're so awesome?

I'm sorry to hear this is such a sad anniversary for you. My dad died four years ago and i still can't think about him without crying. and i'm also so glad i spent time with him that last week before i went back to school and that i talked to him on the phone the night before he died. the first year is a hard one though, and we didn't do holidays or anything that year either. but i'm glad to hear you're doing them this year and doing them in a way that you're comfortable with and keeping your mom with you at heart at the same time. It sounds like you two were close, my dad and i were too, and losing them leaves a hole like nothing else ever could. And i guess what i'm trying to say is. . .i don't even know what i'm trying to say. It sounds trite to say it gets better or easier, because it gets different, that's all. there's nothing else to compare it to to say it's better or easier. but different doesn't have to be bad, and tears aren't bad either. So, I guess I've rambled here enough. Just remember that you're not alone, you've got family and friends and your own guardian angel watching out for you, laughing at the snowmen ornaments you bought. . .

Lissa