Mom. Five years!
Oct. 1st, 2006 03:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
foxmonkeyWhat an absolutely spectacular day it is, a perfect day to usher in my favorite month, October. The sky is postcard blue, and thanks to the very cool weather these last couple of weeks, the leaves are turning. Lots of scarlet and yellow mixed with green, and it looks great. :-)
Today is the fifth anniversary of my mom's death. Five years have practically flown. I remember the first few days, the first few weeks, when it seemed like life would never go back to normal, and that time would drag on until it was *my* time to go. It's freaky how quickly time really does move. From minutes dragging by like days until *poof!* it's five years later and you're just kind of blinking, wondering what happened. One good thing? I can sit here and type this without bawling my eyes out. Go me. I can sit and smile instead, and I'm sure Mom likes that better. :-)
I'll probably watch On the Line either tonight or tomorrow - the last time I saw her we'd made plans to go see it. Unfortunately, I think the movie was released a week or so after she died. This coming weekend I'll go shopping - Bargain Box, an annual event held by the Columbus Junior League. I've been going to Bargain Box since I learned to walk, and it's the other thing Mom and I made plans for. It was held that weekend, just a few days away. We went just about every year.
Bargain Box wasn't just an event, it was a tradition. Lines start forming at like, 4:00 a.m. or something, so we'd get there about 45 mintues 'til opening time and join the line. Then we'd hop around (because it's friggin' freezing in Columbus in the early morning) and chat with other ladies in the line. Policemen walk around in case anyone tries to cut in! It's a popular event, and the line gets looooooong. At 9:00 a.m. the doors open and it's a free for all!
Part of the fun of Bargain Box is shopping together for a bit, then splitting up, then hey! There's Mom, I'll go see what she's got! then splitting up again. It was waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much fun, sport shopping at its best! ;-) When we were finally done, we'd go home, sit on the floor in the family room and pile our shopping bags around us. Then the opening of bags would begin and we'd see what we'd each purchased. Dammit, I don't know whether to laugh or cry. We had so much fun that I'm smiling thinking about it, but man, we'll never do it again. Life, she well and truly sucks sometimes. ;-p
Anyway, I'm glad I'm at the point where I can remember Mom with more laughter than tears. Still think about her tons and I still cry every now and then (eeek, tearing up now). I loved her so much. I miss her like crazy. :-(
Today is the fifth anniversary of my mom's death. Five years have practically flown. I remember the first few days, the first few weeks, when it seemed like life would never go back to normal, and that time would drag on until it was *my* time to go. It's freaky how quickly time really does move. From minutes dragging by like days until *poof!* it's five years later and you're just kind of blinking, wondering what happened. One good thing? I can sit here and type this without bawling my eyes out. Go me. I can sit and smile instead, and I'm sure Mom likes that better. :-)
I'll probably watch On the Line either tonight or tomorrow - the last time I saw her we'd made plans to go see it. Unfortunately, I think the movie was released a week or so after she died. This coming weekend I'll go shopping - Bargain Box, an annual event held by the Columbus Junior League. I've been going to Bargain Box since I learned to walk, and it's the other thing Mom and I made plans for. It was held that weekend, just a few days away. We went just about every year.
Bargain Box wasn't just an event, it was a tradition. Lines start forming at like, 4:00 a.m. or something, so we'd get there about 45 mintues 'til opening time and join the line. Then we'd hop around (because it's friggin' freezing in Columbus in the early morning) and chat with other ladies in the line. Policemen walk around in case anyone tries to cut in! It's a popular event, and the line gets looooooong. At 9:00 a.m. the doors open and it's a free for all!
Part of the fun of Bargain Box is shopping together for a bit, then splitting up, then hey! There's Mom, I'll go see what she's got! then splitting up again. It was waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much fun, sport shopping at its best! ;-) When we were finally done, we'd go home, sit on the floor in the family room and pile our shopping bags around us. Then the opening of bags would begin and we'd see what we'd each purchased. Dammit, I don't know whether to laugh or cry. We had so much fun that I'm smiling thinking about it, but man, we'll never do it again. Life, she well and truly sucks sometimes. ;-p
Anyway, I'm glad I'm at the point where I can remember Mom with more laughter than tears. Still think about her tons and I still cry every now and then (eeek, tearing up now). I loved her so much. I miss her like crazy. :-(
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Date: 2006-10-02 01:07 am (UTC)October 16 will make two years since my mom's death, and this time of the year can be especially hard, but it really does get easier every day. *hugs and all that wonderful stuff*
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Date: 2006-10-02 02:00 am (UTC)You made me teary, but that's okay. There's not a thing wrong with feeling things.
I always think of you and your mom when I watch OTL.