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foxmonkeySo...a year and a half since I last posted. Aiiii! It's been an interesting eighteen months, to be sure -- not always in good ways. I've been away for various reasons: my laptop got all virused-up, the desktop had issues, there was a lapse in home internet access...there were goofy Psychological Issues involved, and other stuff as well. As Bette Davis once said, it's been a bumpy ride.
I need to BIG TIME apologize to someone mentioned in my last post (oddly enough), the should-have-been recipient of my never-written JuC Swap story. As I mentioned in that post, I had a fabulous assignment, someone I truly liked, someone I'd met and hung out with in the real life. It was a dream assignment. At that point it had been a while since I'd written the boys and I wanted to write them again. Only thing is, the more I tried, the more I couldn't.
It kind of reminds me of a story a friend told me about a friend of ours. She was late once with her mortgage payment. The later the payment became, the more terrified she was of making the late payment. Eventually -- believe it or not -- she was four months behind before it finally clicked in her brain. If I remember the story correctly, what clicked in her brain was a representative from the mortgage company showing up at her house. That sounds odd, but then again, it was about ten years ago and anything's possible, I suppose. Anyway.
So. Not being able to write turned into avoiding email and OH MY GOD, what the hell is wrong with me!? And much like my friend with the late mortgage payment, by the time I realized that the fic would not be happening, it was (in my twisted brain) too late to pull out gracefully. Which brings me to the other apology that's way overdue; I should have emailed the Swap organizers to let them know what was going on so a replacement writer could be found. Aiii! I'm a bastage. Ladies, I apologize. Should-have-been recipient...I apologize.
Edited to add, because I'm apparently a total numbnuts: Scotty, I apologize.
Avoiding email meant checking about once every two weeks, then once a month and that turned into forgetting my password, which turned into completely losing the email account that I've been using since I joined fandom. :: boggles :: I'm royally screwed because when I set up the account I was verra, verra new to the internet and was a little suspicious of such things, so I gave false personal info while filling in those blanks (I was assured by someone at the time that it made no difference). As a result, when Yahoo! recently asked me to verify myself by giving the birthdate I gave when I set up the account...I couldn't. I have *no* idea what I filled out way back then. It cut like a knife when I realized that I'll probably never be able to access that account again. So. In various ways I have shafted myself (and others!) ten ways from Sunday, fandomwise.
Anyway. I've been wanting to get back to LJ, I've been thinking about it quite a bit. This is a first step in that direction.
I need to BIG TIME apologize to someone mentioned in my last post (oddly enough), the should-have-been recipient of my never-written JuC Swap story. As I mentioned in that post, I had a fabulous assignment, someone I truly liked, someone I'd met and hung out with in the real life. It was a dream assignment. At that point it had been a while since I'd written the boys and I wanted to write them again. Only thing is, the more I tried, the more I couldn't.
It kind of reminds me of a story a friend told me about a friend of ours. She was late once with her mortgage payment. The later the payment became, the more terrified she was of making the late payment. Eventually -- believe it or not -- she was four months behind before it finally clicked in her brain. If I remember the story correctly, what clicked in her brain was a representative from the mortgage company showing up at her house. That sounds odd, but then again, it was about ten years ago and anything's possible, I suppose. Anyway.
So. Not being able to write turned into avoiding email and OH MY GOD, what the hell is wrong with me!? And much like my friend with the late mortgage payment, by the time I realized that the fic would not be happening, it was (in my twisted brain) too late to pull out gracefully. Which brings me to the other apology that's way overdue; I should have emailed the Swap organizers to let them know what was going on so a replacement writer could be found. Aiii! I'm a bastage. Ladies, I apologize. Should-have-been recipient...I apologize.
Edited to add, because I'm apparently a total numbnuts: Scotty, I apologize.
Avoiding email meant checking about once every two weeks, then once a month and that turned into forgetting my password, which turned into completely losing the email account that I've been using since I joined fandom. :: boggles :: I'm royally screwed because when I set up the account I was verra, verra new to the internet and was a little suspicious of such things, so I gave false personal info while filling in those blanks (I was assured by someone at the time that it made no difference). As a result, when Yahoo! recently asked me to verify myself by giving the birthdate I gave when I set up the account...I couldn't. I have *no* idea what I filled out way back then. It cut like a knife when I realized that I'll probably never be able to access that account again. So. In various ways I have shafted myself (and others!) ten ways from Sunday, fandomwise.
Anyway. I've been wanting to get back to LJ, I've been thinking about it quite a bit. This is a first step in that direction.
