New Year's musing.
Dec. 31st, 2001 11:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
It's 11:21pm, and I just saw (about friggin' HALF) of the Girlfriend video. JC makes my heart sing. *sigh*
I'm where just about every writer has been at one point or another - thinking of not doing this anymore.
You ask yourself, what's the point? I read amazing stories with original, interesting story lines, and I wonder why the hell I can't wring stuff like that out of my brain. Is it my imagination, or is everything I write the same? Someone told me once that my stuff is romantic, and it is, but I'm not sure I'm happy about that. I guess there's enough angst in my real life without visiting it upon five young men that I like to write sexy stories about. But angst is interesting, and fluffy stories where everyone ends up happy, aren't.
I want my stuff to be interesting, but it isn't, and that makes me anxious. It's there for a read, then it's gone, like an apple that you eat to fill the gaps before dinner. I want to be dinner, but that stick-to-your-ribs quality is missing in my fic.
New Year's Resolution: To not suck, fic-wise.
How to accomplish New Year's Resolution: Not a damn clue.
I'm where just about every writer has been at one point or another - thinking of not doing this anymore.
You ask yourself, what's the point? I read amazing stories with original, interesting story lines, and I wonder why the hell I can't wring stuff like that out of my brain. Is it my imagination, or is everything I write the same? Someone told me once that my stuff is romantic, and it is, but I'm not sure I'm happy about that. I guess there's enough angst in my real life without visiting it upon five young men that I like to write sexy stories about. But angst is interesting, and fluffy stories where everyone ends up happy, aren't.
I want my stuff to be interesting, but it isn't, and that makes me anxious. It's there for a read, then it's gone, like an apple that you eat to fill the gaps before dinner. I want to be dinner, but that stick-to-your-ribs quality is missing in my fic.
New Year's Resolution: To not suck, fic-wise.
How to accomplish New Year's Resolution: Not a damn clue.
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Date: 2001-12-31 08:47 pm (UTC)Thanks. *slinking off to cry*
You ROCK!!!
Date: 2001-12-31 08:54 pm (UTC)Re: You ROCK!!!
also, just because you're not writing incredibly edgy things doesn't make you a bad writer. i mean, look at helen. in her sentinel stories, she had a series called "Conventions A Go-Go" that was all about writing stories with completely clicheed plots in just the slightest different way.
Plus, while you may think we're all off here being all edgy and dramatic and coming up with this stuff on our own? "skin," for example, was a complete rip-off of the style of another author. It's just about where you get your inspiration from.
If you want someone to discuss and develop bunnies with? i'm also here.
but really? mainly just writing a lot helps develops style and plot-development. so if you're really feeling bad (which you shouldn't!) that's what i suggest most :)
also, thank you for the feedback, but remember just because you thinks someone else is good doesn't mean that you aren't good too. :)
Re: You ROCK!!!
Date: 2002-01-02 06:19 pm (UTC)I had a great beta in my former fandom, and told her that she could be hard on me. I was also a fan of her writing, and I respected her ideas and her suggestions. She's not into boybands, though. ;-)
The weird thing is that I've lived enough angst for eighty-five lifetimes, I devoured horror and sci-fi like a fiend, and I've read hundreds of books (thousands!), but I can't seem to come up with what I think are interesting ideas...Maybe I'm just too much in my own head? Oy, now I have a headahce.
Thanks, also, for the compliments. :-)