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01/01/10.
So...a year and a half since I last posted. Aiiii! It's been an interesting eighteen months, to be sure -- not always in good ways. I've been away for various reasons: my laptop got all virused-up, the desktop had issues, there was a lapse in home internet access...there were goofy Psychological Issues involved, and other stuff as well. As Bette Davis once said, it's been a bumpy ride.
I need to BIG TIME apologize to someone mentioned in my last post (oddly enough), the should-have-been recipient of my never-written JuC Swap story. As I mentioned in that post, I had a fabulous assignment, someone I truly liked, someone I'd met and hung out with in the real life. It was a dream assignment. At that point it had been a while since I'd written the boys and I wanted to write them again. Only thing is, the more I tried, the more I couldn't.
It kind of reminds me of a story a friend told me about a friend of ours. She was late once with her mortgage payment. The later the payment became, the more terrified she was of making the late payment. Eventually -- believe it or not -- she was four months behind before it finally clicked in her brain. If I remember the story correctly, what clicked in her brain was a representative from the mortgage company showing up at her house. That sounds odd, but then again, it was about ten years ago and anything's possible, I suppose. Anyway.
So. Not being able to write turned into avoiding email and OH MY GOD, what the hell is wrong with me!? And much like my friend with the late mortgage payment, by the time I realized that the fic would not be happening, it was (in my twisted brain) too late to pull out gracefully. Which brings me to the other apology that's way overdue; I should have emailed the Swap organizers to let them know what was going on so a replacement writer could be found. Aiii! I'm a bastage. Ladies, I apologize. Should-have-been recipient...I apologize.
Edited to add, because I'm apparently a total numbnuts: Scotty, I apologize.
Avoiding email meant checking about once every two weeks, then once a month and that turned into forgetting my password, which turned into completely losing the email account that I've been using since I joined fandom. :: boggles :: I'm royally screwed because when I set up the account I was verra, verra new to the internet and was a little suspicious of such things, so I gave false personal info while filling in those blanks (I was assured by someone at the time that it made no difference). As a result, when Yahoo! recently asked me to verify myself by giving the birthdate I gave when I set up the account...I couldn't. I have *no* idea what I filled out way back then. It cut like a knife when I realized that I'll probably never be able to access that account again. So. In various ways I have shafted myself (and others!) ten ways from Sunday, fandomwise.
Anyway. I've been wanting to get back to LJ, I've been thinking about it quite a bit. This is a first step in that direction.
I need to BIG TIME apologize to someone mentioned in my last post (oddly enough), the should-have-been recipient of my never-written JuC Swap story. As I mentioned in that post, I had a fabulous assignment, someone I truly liked, someone I'd met and hung out with in the real life. It was a dream assignment. At that point it had been a while since I'd written the boys and I wanted to write them again. Only thing is, the more I tried, the more I couldn't.
It kind of reminds me of a story a friend told me about a friend of ours. She was late once with her mortgage payment. The later the payment became, the more terrified she was of making the late payment. Eventually -- believe it or not -- she was four months behind before it finally clicked in her brain. If I remember the story correctly, what clicked in her brain was a representative from the mortgage company showing up at her house. That sounds odd, but then again, it was about ten years ago and anything's possible, I suppose. Anyway.
So. Not being able to write turned into avoiding email and OH MY GOD, what the hell is wrong with me!? And much like my friend with the late mortgage payment, by the time I realized that the fic would not be happening, it was (in my twisted brain) too late to pull out gracefully. Which brings me to the other apology that's way overdue; I should have emailed the Swap organizers to let them know what was going on so a replacement writer could be found. Aiii! I'm a bastage. Ladies, I apologize. Should-have-been recipient...I apologize.
Edited to add, because I'm apparently a total numbnuts: Scotty, I apologize.
Avoiding email meant checking about once every two weeks, then once a month and that turned into forgetting my password, which turned into completely losing the email account that I've been using since I joined fandom. :: boggles :: I'm royally screwed because when I set up the account I was verra, verra new to the internet and was a little suspicious of such things, so I gave false personal info while filling in those blanks (I was assured by someone at the time that it made no difference). As a result, when Yahoo! recently asked me to verify myself by giving the birthdate I gave when I set up the account...I couldn't. I have *no* idea what I filled out way back then. It cut like a knife when I realized that I'll probably never be able to access that account again. So. In various ways I have shafted myself (and others!) ten ways from Sunday, fandomwise.
Anyway. I've been wanting to get back to LJ, I've been thinking about it quite a bit. This is a first step in that direction.
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Hey you! Happy 2010!
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Hey you! Happy 2010!
Happy New Year to you, and thank you muchly! *waves back* I hope to have a better 2010 than 2009. We'll see what happens. :-D
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Thank you, and it's good to see that you're still around! :-) *waves*
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Like the devil and bad pennies, I do keep popping up. I'm glad to see you're still around! :-)
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Thank you! I've definitely missed fandom, and coming back has been about a year overdue. :-)
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Hello! *waves* :-) If you can edit your birthdate, DO SO. Also, write down your password.
The only thing that saved me from losing access to my LJ was the fact that the last time I updated my passwords I saved them offline. If I hadn't, I'd have had to request reset passwords...which would have been sent to the foxmonk Yahoo! account that I can no longer access. Now *THAT* would have hurt with the fury of a million burning suns. :-(
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So good to hear from you. Not only do I know all too well about the compounding guilt syndrome, but ack, I have to go check the birthdate info on my email! I hope it's a very wonderful 2010 for you.
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So good to hear from you. Not only do I know all too well about the compounding guilt syndrome, but ack, I have to go check the birthdate info on my email! I hope it's a very wonderful 2010 for you.
ROFL! I've been wondering about that for ages! Now for a test: ♥ Hello! Happy New Year to you!
OY with the compounding guilt. I hope I'm never there again. :-( AND! Copy-n-pasting from my response above:
If you can edit your birthdate, DO SO. Also, write down your password.
The only thing that saved me from losing access to my LJ was the fact that the last time I updated my passwords I saved them offline. If I hadn't, I'd have had to request reset passwords...which would have been sent to the foxmonk Yahoo! account that I can no longer access. Now *THAT* would have hurt with the fury of a million burning suns. :-(
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It's good to see you too! Happy New Year! *waves*
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It's nice to see you around again ^_^
Hope 2010 is a better year for you!
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Hope 2010 is a better year for you!
Howdy, woman, thank you! Happy New Year, and I hope that 2010 is a good one for you too. :-D
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Hooray! It's good to see you too. :-) *waves*
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Love the icon with Justin's big ol' manpaw waving hello. :-D Hello! *waves*
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Thank you! *waves* I've missed talking about fandom stuff with fandom people, so I'm very glad to be back. :-) Also, thank you for the card, it was *quite* a surprise! I think that might also have been the first tiny push I needed to stick my head back in LJ. :: hugs::
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*hugs*
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I know exactly what you mean, what with the guilt and the longer you put something off, the harder it is to do it.
I'm just happy you're back. ♥
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I know exactly what you mean, what with the guilt and the longer you put something off, the harder it is to do it.
I'm just happy you're back.
Squee! :-D *mega hugs and twirls and stuff* I read over my JC concert entries last night before posting, thinking about you and the girls and JC and stuff. SO. MUCH. FUN. I know I posted it somewhere in my journal, but honestly, that weekend with you guys was one of the best times in fandom that I've ever had...and would have been even without the Chasez. :-)
I look forward to being a smaller ball of issues than I was in 2009. We'll see what happens. ;-)
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I look forward to being a smaller ball of issues than I was in 2009. We'll see what happens. ;-)
I look forward to it. And the last time I went to see Erin, because she was all lonely and doesn't have any friends, she had plans for every day I was there. Next time that happens, I'll call you.
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Ska-whee! I shall look forward to it, good sir. I *think* you have my cell number; we have a new land line number that I'll email. :-D
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Hot bitter tears were shed, I tell you. Well, not really, but awfully, awfully close. :-(
Hello! *waves* I'm glad to see so many familiar faces are still around. :-)